Run With Fashion

2020 was the theme of OUT with the OLD & IN with the NEW!

I saw this all the way in March, I observed what was going on

& KNEW 2020 was the yr that we ARE TRANSITIONING INTO A NEW WORLD!! Life as we knew it was OVER!!

It’s like we shedded the old skin of 2019 decade and the 2020 decade is a new skin, a new life & a new world. And I couldn’t believe it, that I was witnessing changes RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES!

 Like when Kobe died, I felt like his death was like an end of life as we knew it was over, our normalcy was over, I found his death to be eerie. And then the Coronavirus hit, that lil thing that came with a HUGE package caused so much uphill, sadness, GRIEF, heartache & most of all, CHANGE!!

That change that sprung up from the virus, gave us a new normal, an odd & strange one, we had to quickly adapt to new life rules, we had to give up the OLD way of life for a NEW way of life.

OUT WITH THE OLD, IN WITH THE NEW! 

And yet, I find it so strange yet funny how things worked out for me in my favor due to the Pandemic. 

Last yr I decided to take a break from fashion illustration and shift my focus on sewing and to go into fashion design. So when the pandemic hit, and all fashion businesses shifted into making masks and new jobs were created, I KNEW I COULD GET A LEVEL ENTRY SEWING JOB!! And I did, I got a very entry level sewing job in June, and I was THRILLED!!! So even though this virus caused a world wide pandemic & it was horrible for everyone, I must say in some odd funny way, it OPENED DOORS for me to JUMP START my fashion design dreams! This sewing job was a stepping stone towards my dreams, it meant SO MUCH to me!! It made me want to pursue fashion design even more!!

I just find it funny how life works out, even in darkness there’s still light, you just gotta look for it, & I did, I found it & it made me happy & hopeful :)

So I just want to THANK 2020 for OPENING THE DOORS to my fashion dreams, jump starting it, the pieces literally fell into place, life is truly amazing, interesting yet strange how things just work out!

So it really gives proof that, things really do happen for a reason. Covid gave me a job, a job I wanted & got. If covid didn’t happen, I won’t have gotten a sewing job, a very entry level one, so for that, I am thankful for covid happening even though that sounds so strange to write and for you to read, but hey, it’s my life & covid did give me something new, career wise. ;)

It got rid of my old career and brought in the new. I don’t know what’s next for me career wise, I do still have a sewing production job which I’m happy about, but I want more, I’m in it for the long haul now, there’s no turning back. <3

I would also like to add, my year ended on a beautiful, happy, magical and euphoric note, it was totally unexpected, and I'm just grateful and thankful!😍❤️

Happy New Years guys, may 2021 be BETTER, no more lockdowns, I hope! *fingers crossed* I really can’t handle another full yr of a lockdown, too depressing :(

And please wear masks and social distance, think about the nurses, my heart goes out to them, they’re the REAL MVP’S of 2020❤️

See you in 2021 :)

❤️Eliza

Today,

August 24th is my birthday.

My wish for my birthday was to NOT spend my day AT HOME, because, well, that's depressing, I have always went out with my twin sister on our bday. But not today, today I stayed home and I was sad about that. I had a job since June, my first sewing job, which I was THRILLED ABOUT, very entry level, sewing elastics to medical masks for hospitals. I was really happy there and having to just SEW. Sure, overtime, the job became tiring for my body, but, I still loved the job, I honestly loved it more than my freelance illustration jobs, because I love to work with my hands <3

Anywho, early August, at work there were 2 celebrations, a surprise wedding celebration for a worker and another of someone's birthday. I thought, 'Oh, wow! This is so cool & sweet of the company to do this for their workers!' I thought maybe they'll throw me a surprise birthday celebration too! It was always a lil dream of mines to have a bday celebration by co-workers at the workplace, I just wanted to feel that happy, caring, loving and healthy environment at a workplace, since I never experienced that as I'm a freelancer and work by myself. 

But, I had a feeling, I won’t get a bday celebration at work last week & I was sad about that, I just had a feeling, but I thought, maybe they will do something for me? Would be nice😌 *Staying hopeful*

But, last Friday, I was given UNEXPECTED news, I was told not to come to work on Monday and that week, because I’ll be on standby as the coronavirus is “lessening” as the co-worker told me, which is such a lie *rolls eyes*

So, I was heartbroken, my ONLY WISH FOR MY BIRTHDAY WAS TO NOT BE AT HOME AND BE AT WORK 😢😢😞💔

As I said, I had a FEELING, I won’t get a bday celebration at work, but damn, I didn’t expect to not come at all, I didn’t expect that news!! It was such a bomb drop for me. I just wanted to cry, because my wishes & hopes for my bday were gone now, I would really be having a quarantined birthday -.-

Waking up this morning, I was sad, but the sadness quickly changed, after my mom wished me a happy birthday, she was the only one that wished me and my sister a happy birthday, no cousins, no other family, just my mom. And I realized at that moment, that’s all that really mattered. Sure, my bday wishes came crashing down on me, sure I won’t get the office bday celebration surprise, sure, I won’t be celebrating outside my home, but, I had my mom, the only person in my family to say, “Happy Birthday” with a hug & a kiss❤️✨

My mom is my Birthday present, she’s the only one that’s there for me when no one else is, she’s the only one that really matters. Not the workplace, not the workplace celebration with people that probably don’t really care about me, not the Porto’s cakes, sandwiches & welches Sparkling Rose, those are just things.

I don’t know if my mother will be here next yr, so this may be the last birthday celebration I have with her, so having her for another birthday and her forever love is honestly the only thing I needed & the only thing that truly matters, and that in itself is a present. ❤️✨

❤️Eliza